But he can't just convey that, because it must have meant a lot for Gaku to say it in particular. Ellis can't just turn away and give him the usual disinterested response for lighter-hearted things. But love. He knows that Gaku is sincere--that's all he ever is. He's sincere about everything. That's why Ellis finds it hard to believe that Gaku "loves" him all of a sudden, when they talked about how it probably wouldn't happen for a long time, and Ellis was okay with getting married despite that and perhaps Gaku was too, if that was the only way. Love was not a clause for Ellis to go with Gaku, and yet...
... ]
"I thought"
[ His hands sign slowly and eventually pause. Ellis isn't sure what to convey. ]
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That isn't what he meant!!!
But he can't just convey that, because it must have meant a lot for Gaku to say it in particular. Ellis can't just turn away and give him the usual disinterested response for lighter-hearted things. But love. He knows that Gaku is sincere--that's all he ever is. He's sincere about everything. That's why Ellis finds it hard to believe that Gaku "loves" him all of a sudden, when they talked about how it probably wouldn't happen for a long time, and Ellis was okay with getting married despite that and perhaps Gaku was too, if that was the only way. Love was not a clause for Ellis to go with Gaku, and yet...
... ]
"I thought"
[ His hands sign slowly and eventually pause. Ellis isn't sure what to convey. ]